Five Minute Friday: Grow

It's time again for Five Minute Friday.  Late because I've spent the morning trying to rest from trying to be a teenager last night and go see a movie at midnight.  What was I thinking??  Anyway, if you would like to join in, please click over to The Gypsy Mama and read the rules!

This week's prompt: Grow

Go.

This spirit inside me yearns to leap and grow beyond these walls.  To create, to do, to explore, to push.  It longs for freedom to do as it pleases and not worry. 

I wish to pursue so many things I sometimes don't even know where to start.  I throw myself into a goal only to find life gently laugh as it reminds me of my responsibilities.  You can face a goal head-on but there is always that balancing act of holding everything else together while you do.

I don't resent this life.  Not in the slightest.  I love my children, my husband.  I love to nurture and care for them.  I appreciate the time they give me to be me and to do things on my own.  I appreciate their encouragement.  Sometimes, when you have weeks like the one I've just finished, it's difficult to feel like your growth is not stunted. 

As a perfectionist, it's hard for me to keep encouraging myself.  Because I want the results now and I want them accomplished perfectly.  I know that life will never allow me that.  I suppose that is growth in and of itself- the knowing.  It's working on accepting that and moving forward that is difficult.

So I continue to press forward among the girl's requests for a dance in the kitchen, a snuggle with my husband, the responsibilities of my home and my job.  I know there is growth in those things and nourishment for the spirit.  They are important for me and for them.  Small miracles.  I guess my growing spirit just feels selfish sometimes.  It will get over it.

Stop.